Maternity Leave
Sharon July 20th, 2012
Hi Folks – The more I look at my life, the more I think I’m not doing things as well as I could be – too many balls in the air. Many of the things I care about are paying a price. The addition of the chronic sleep deprivation that goes with a new baby is pushing me to strip down my life to the bare minimum.
What’s frustrating me most is that writing and online work are taking up time I should be spending on sustainability measures – while I’m writing about the joys of pickling, I’m not actually making pickles with the kids. For a long time this was manageable, but right now, with a two week old, it just isn’t.
There’s also the fact that I wasn’t a professional author when I had my first four boys – I was a farmer and a Mom who could pay attention to what was going on online or not, as needed. I wrote because I needed an outlet, but I had the luxury of no one caring if I put anything up for weeks or months. Now I feel like the internet is always on, at least in the back of my head – and that this baby isn’t getting the kind of attention that my others did. I want the luxury of just sitting there with a baby in my arms and not feeling guilty about it.
So I’m going to take six months maternity leave – I’ve always made the statement that the “you can have it all” idea was garbage – so why would I try and live it? I will be updating this blog and www.sharonastyk.com once per week, on Thursdays. My goal is longer and more thoughtful posts, a la John Michael Greer, but if the sleep deprivation continues until morale improves, who knows, it might be all gibberish. Note that on this blog, that would often mean me updating MORE OFTEN, so that’s good.
Something will go up once a week, but the rest of the time is for home and family until the baby sleeps, the harvest is in, the publicity push for _Making Home_ over, the new book written, and the baby goats grown to sale size.
I’ll still be around – I promised I’d run the food preservation class in August during the canning season, and so I will, and you can always email, but I’m going to slow the pace and concentrate on what’s important. I’ll be back to my more regular schedule Feb. 1 or sooner if the baby leaves ;-(. Or if I go mad with stuff to write about.